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Just got back from my kickboxing class..Yes,u must be thinking.. "what kickboxing class? i thot he was sick?" well,yeah..actually..i'm still sick but at least my body isnt aching as much. :P Well,i thought maybe exercising will help me get better.. :) Had my first sparring class today with Keh Boon and Mark. Wow,it was really really fun even though i got hit quite alot on the face and body but i did have fun and i learned alot today about how to avoid and move away from an opponent thats coming for u. :) Cost me like RM10 for the class and another RM12 for the mouth-guard..which was compulsory for safety purposes. :) Yes,i'm crazy..not feeling well and i still went for kickboxing..i cant help myself..kickboxing is one place that i can go to and lose everything..and i mean lose everything..I'm like another person when i'm there with the people and the people know my name..wait,this sounds like Cheers..haha. :P Well,anyway...i really enjoy myself when i'm there..and today was really really fun..cause i got to do sparring with Keh Boon and Mark was there to teach us the basic of sparring..Really got hit alot from Keh Boon cause it wasnt his first class so he had the upper-hand. Think i landed some punches and kicks too but he came fighting back..haha. :P So all in all it was fun..but i really need to get used to having punches and kicks thrown at me cause i'm ducking and moving away too much..i need to retaliate when the opponent comes towards me instead of moving away. :) So i must say,i'm definitely going back for more sparring classes. :) I think i sweat so much more when i do sparring then the usual kickboxing classes..which is a good thing cause i think i'm getting more workout out of it which in return will help me lose weight..hehe. :) But now i really have to get back to work..tomorrow my group is gonna paint the banner and the guys have already bought the paint and all the other stuffs that we're gonna need and hopefully we can finish everything in one day cause i really do NOT want to go to Vista Prima where the guys are staying to work on the canvas/banner. I really hope i get better soon else i'll be sniffing and my body will be aching all over while i paint the banner/canvas tomorrow..Argh,really not something that i'll enjoy! This weekend is gonna be pretty fun. There's a Chinese kickboxing tournament starting tomorrow at the Stadium Badminton, Cheras which Khoo and a few others are joining so some friends from TNT and i will be going to cheer Khoo and the gang on while they fight..This is gonna be a real eye-opener for me cause this will be my first Chinese kickboxing tournament for me..Really hoping for some really good fights. :) Gonna have to go for Ching Choo and Arthur's wedding first in the morning thought..then gonna go down to Cheras for the fight. :) If everything goes well,the tournament will end on Saturday and Khoo and gang will be having a big party at BarFly..so i'm guessing i'll be sleeping late (read : early) again on Sunday morning. :) Anyways,really should get back to my work now..and i'm gonna need to take some more panadol before i go to bed cause i'm feeling a bad headache coming..sigh,maybe i really caught something from TNT..and also it was raining today..so maybe walking under the rain wasnt such a good idea after all. :P Oh well,i'll just have to power through for 2 more weeks then i'll be having a 2 months holiday til February of next year. :) Wheee..Maybe next year,there's gonna be an opening on one of the islands and i can go there to work..and i can start my own kickboxing gym on the island..haha. :) Oh what an idea.. ;) So "bonne nuit and au revoir, mes amis. :) "The sad truth is that excellence makes people nervous." -Shana Alexander-

Here's another abstract art for u to enjoy..all malaysian artist..nothing foreign about it..so at a long good look at it and see what ur imagination brings u. :) Thats what i like about abstract art..its ur imagination that makes u decide if the piece is good or not..cause if ur imagination brings u something that reminds u of something nice from ur past then u'll definitely fall in love with it. :) So have fun and take a good look. :)

Woke up today feeling really really tired and my body is still aching all over..sigh,i cant get sick now..there's still alot of work to finish. Raimy and Zaza is the only people in class right now..Oja is following her dad to college and Li Ann is gonna take the car i think.. See this is one the reasons why sometimes i cant miss college cause i'm fetching other people to college..so in turn,because of their needs..i'll have to force myself to go even though i dont want to or dont feel like it. Anyways,today i really cant force myself..tried to sleep early but i couldnt cause i was up trying to finish up my life drawing sketches..suppose to hand in our sketch book tomorrow..i'm just hoping that all this work wont fail me..else i'll be screwed for sure.

There's alot of reasons why i really dont want to fail..well,firstly its cause its gonna cost if i fail..cost alot. Secondly, i dont want to repeat anything..especially when i have to repeat it alone and i lose all these good friendships that i've started. I mean..how would it affect our friendship when all of them have advanced and i'm the only one that has to stay back for one more foundation semester cause i failed some subjects. Sigh..what am i doing? WHAT AM I DOING? I really do not want to lost these friends that i've known since i started studying in LUCT. They are a really really cool bunch..I really cannot fail this semester..there's too many things on the line.

SIgh,yesterday got back around 6pm, manage to sketch onto the banner/canvas our artwork and today hopefully the guys would have bought the pelaka and tomorrow we'll spend the whole day painting the banner/canvas and by tuesday we would be ready to hand it in and also have our small presentation ready to show Ms. Ain and Mr. Nik.. had dinner around 8pm i guess and continued to work and work til like God knows when..Suppose to go for Prayer Meeting cause Pastor Mark Bernard was suppose to stop by and share with us...but i really couldnt afford to waste any time right now..i have to get all these work done so that i dont fail..at least a pass will be sufficient for me..At least today, i can afford not to show up in college cause there's no photography class and i guess i can afford to not go for my Comm Studies class..but Ms. Bakia said there's gonna be some good news and bad news for us today..so i'm crossing my fingers and toes that its about our final exam and also our report..something really really good and something thats not so bad. :P

Anyways,i need to get back to work..hopefully the panadols i took wont make me feel sleepy..else i'll be sleeping and not working.. :) So have fun doing whatever u're doing today,people..Eat more, think less... :P Nah,dont follow that..its not a good thing.. ;) "Au revoir."

"Do not protect yourself by a fence, but rather by your friends."
-Czech Proverb-

Didnt have time to post anything yesterday cause i was out like the whole day since 9am til like 1am cause after college..we had a suprise birthday dinner party for Raimy and Putri..Raimy's birthday was on friday and Putri's on sunday..so we decided to have something for them on monday. Yanna, Oja and i planned the whole thing..there was like 9 of us there..Preach, Raymond, Wulan, Diva, Yanna, Oja, me and the 2 birthday girl and boy..Went to Planet Hollywood and i must say that the people at Planet Hollywood did a pretty good job but they werent so bright with the surpise party thing.

Well,the thing was that when i asked them to get ready the cake to bring it out to surpise Raimy and Putri..one of the waiters brought the plates and the big knife out and placed it on the table..bearing in mind, we all had the Ramadhan buffet so we didnt need to order anything..so that kinda spoilt the suprise..but at least only Raimy kinda caught on after the plates came out..but Putri didnt expect it..so at least one of them was suprised..haha. :) Didnt make mention about the planning in here cause i didnt want to take the risk that one of them might read my blog and actually find out about the thing..haha. :)

Oh well,this week and the 2 coming weeks..i'll be pretty busy with assignments cause the semester is gonna end in like 3 weeks time..so alot alot of assignments to finish..so might not be able to update this blog that often as before..so bear with me. And yeah,enjoy the painting..let me know what do u see after looking at this painting..to me,its kinda like a face of a person..but then again...its an abstract painting so u can imagine whatever u want. :) So enjoy,people. :) It was also taken from KarangKraf..cant really remember the name of the artist though..so i really hope i dont get into any trouble with the copyright stuffs. :)

Anyways,now i'll have to stop cause i still have alot of work to finish and get ready for tomorrow..will try to post a summary soon after all this madness has passed. :) So "Bonne Nuit and Au revoir,mes amis."

"People demand freedom of speech as a compensation for the freedom of thought which they seldom use."
-Soren Kierkegaard; Danish philosopher (1813 - 1855)-

Sigh,stupid flickr.com..i actually had already finish typing my post for the day and the stupid website hanged and i had to force quit the program and now i've lost the post that i've already written..sigh,i'm not in the mood to retype everything..so guess thats down the drain..

Anyways,enjoy the painting..its the same artist that did the turtle painting..couldnt manage to take the whole artwork cause he had another artwork placed in front of this one..but if i remember well,the main subject of the whole painting was these few fishes..so u all didnt miss anything. :)

Gotta go get some more work done for tomorrow..so wont be blogging too much for today..so "Bonne nuit,mes amis." "Au revoir."

"Imagination is more important than knowledge..."
-Albert Einstein; US (German-born) physicist (1879 - 1955)-

Currently Listening To : Dimitri From Paris.

This painting above can also be found at KarangKraf on Jalan Conlay i think..well,somewhere around that place lar..in the same vicinity as Bon Ton and Top Hat..Really nice painting..i think if u admire at this painting for u..its quite hypnotic,dont u think? :) Sometimes i think art has a calming effect..well,for me i think it..besides music..but i guess music do effect u more...guess its cause what u hear is more effective than what u see..Anyways,good painting. :) Enjoy.

Just got back from my friend's place..didnt go for Christmas practice cause my friend had a house warming party for her new place at erm..i want to say Damansara Damai but i'm not sure..but i do know that its the area opposite SierraMas in Sungai Buloh. :) Had to go cause she already told my old school friend and i like 1 month ago..so couldnt back out of it. Pretty interesting place..there were like 2 other house warming party in her area..so i guess today must be a very good day in the chinese calendar to have a party. Lots of her father's friends and relatives around..so not many of us, her school friends around..but it was quite fun..chatting and catching up with each other..We pooled some $$ and bought her a desk fan if thats what's it called..dont think she needed it though but it was the thought that matters. :)

Today was pretty slow..woke up still thinking alot about moving or doing something about what happened last night. Was thinking alot also about my final assignments and what can i do with the ideas i have already in my head..its just that i'm still trying to get things onto paper and my execution of the work is really really not good..i do have good ideas but when i pen it down or when i draw it on paper..i spoil the idea and thats no use..it doesnt matter how good ur idea is..its how well u can actually put ur ideas into action or paper..that is what separates the artists from the amateurs and useless bums..i believe that everybody has good ideas in their minds most of the time..well,when they give the ideas more thought but its when u get it out and into action or whatever..then thats when the real test begins.

Gonna work more on the drafts for the Christmas flyers later..already have some but i think i need more so that when most of them get rejected,i still have alot more to show tomorrow..i think after all this..i'll just move..move to somewhere where i can just forget about everything and start afresh..but where can i go? what should i do? die? hmmm,that sounds so nice right now..Ironically, tomorrow there's gonna be a baptism service after the main service around 12pm..other people's gonna start a new life and i want to end it..interesting how life works huh. :) Being very very negative right now arent i? Well,thats just me i guess..emotional to the maximum..not mature enough to even control my own emotions..and i tried to start a relationship with another person..someone that i love..how could i have even said i love that person when i'm such a loser myself? thinking that i can actually be in a relationship? what the hell was i thinking? Cant even take care of myself right now..Yet right now i still love this person very much..but is it really love? Who decides if it is love that u're feeling?

How can one even be in love when their emotional state is so erratic? Can one be in love when they cant even control their emotions? When their emotions run wild like fire? Maybe i should stop now..i should go work on the Christmas flyer drafts and my assignments..dont feel like sleeping right now..really want to have a fag right now..Most of my course-mates have been offering me some..Why not i say..everything else hasnt worked for me..Everything that i've tried has gone down the drain..How can one get so depressed and negative in just one night? Is there something wrong with me? There is something wrong with me..something really really wrong. Maybe if i go away,go somewhere new..away from all this hurt and all this feeling of love..How can i even say such a thing? How can one be hurt and feel love at the same time?

I was rejected like 3 times by that person before she accepted me..but til today i'm still not sure if she did accept my love..how inmature am i to be still thinking about her when its already been 2 years since she ended her relationship with me..Yeah,i kept track..crazy? yeah,out of my mind..can you actually be in love for that long? but then again..did i really love her? do i actually still love her right now? All the things i do or say doesnt seem to show that..well,at least thats how all the books on dating and love says..it seems that from the books that i've read that if u cant be happy for the person that u love even if it means that she's not gonna be with u..then its not really love..so does that mean..that what i feel right now for her isnt love? but why do i still love her?

Alot of questions for one night huh..Man,where did this side of me come from? Did i avoid this side of me for so long? Or did i just find out about this whole new side? Or is it the same side but i've never seen it this way? Maybe i'm just asking too many questions huh..All this time,i keep thinking i'm in a better place..but no,i've been lying to myself all this time..how can i be in a better place when i'm not a better person..All this time,i try to be someone that actually i'm not..Who am i? What have i become? I thought i knew myself..but in reality,i'm a stranger.
Gonna stop now..this post is getting too emotional i think..maybe this post will be the beginning of the end for this blog. Who knows..let just wait and see..

"If I could drop dead right now, I'd be the happiest man alive."
-Samuel Goldwyn; US (Polish-born) movie producer (1882 - 1974)-

Please do not laugh when u look at the drawing above! This is a photo taken after i've finished my life drawing test today..took me like 3 hours i think to finish the piece..not 3 hours straight though..i could have done it but the model wouldnt be able to survive sitting in that position for 3 whole hours..hehe. :P So there was like 3 breaks during the first half of the day..started drawing around 10am cause Mr. Foad had to brief us about our integrated final assignment..its due in 2 weeks i think..and my group hasnt even start doing any research on the art movement that we want or the artist that we want to follow. So its a pretty interesting journey..hehe. ;) Should start panicking right now but i think i better stay calm cause i dont think we can have the whole group panicking..then we wont get anything done and we'll be screaming at each other..haha. :P

So anyway, as u can see from this drawing..there is alot of faults but then again this is really much better than the first time when i got into class and did my first first drawing..Mr. Foad caused find the words to say how bad it was.. :P But today..he mentioned that my proportion was good but my drawing still looks cartoonish..so there is still room for improvement. :) but i think alot of us did make good improvement ever since attending Mr. Foad's class..so i guess Mr. Foad sure can teach a bunch of bad artists into at least..a amateur artist..haha. :) So the whole day, the class spent like 6 hours in class trying to draw and render the model onto colored sugar paper.

Got home and about 1 and 1/2 hours ago,i had a fight with my brother..and i didnt mean a verbal fight..a real fight..a fight that broke a table and almost broke my brother's laptop..God was really gracious enough to keep my mom home even though she was suppose to go for CareGroup but she stayed home..and she ended the fight..after the fight..had some serious talk..mostly about how i've been acting and stuffs like that..anyways..feeling really weird right now..dont even know what to do..maybe i should just move out..then all these wont even have to happen. Everybody was hurt..think my brother was hurt the most..physically. My mom got some too i think..cause she was trying to stop the fight and standing in between us..i got hurt on my head abit..and my last toe..that one was really weird cause i didnt even know what my last toe got hurt..Anyways,i'm going to bed right now..dont feel like doing anything..just want to go somewhere that i can just forget about everything..EVERYTHING. Maybe i should go work on some island on the east coast..i'll just stop studying and go work..maybe that'll work. i dont even have to be in KL anymore..
"Bonne nuit."

"Life isn't fair. It's just fairer than death, that's all."
-William Goldman, "The Princess Bride"-

The picture above was taken a few weeks ago when i was with the gang at the National Art Gallery..they were having an art exhibition for young artists around Malaysia..so this was done by a young artist..cant remember the name though but as u can see from the picture..the drawing is pretty real..at first i thought it was a huge photo but as i looked closer at it..i realise that i was actually a painting. :) Kudos to the young artist..really good work. :)

Well,today wasnt a very eventful day..so it was pretty good that way cause i only had like 3 hours of sleep..only managed to get to bed around 4am today cause i had to get alot more sketches done so that i could show it to Ms. Ain and Mr. Nik for approval then by Monday our group can start work on the canvas/banner..i just realise that there's only like 2 weeks left before the end of semester and the canvas/banner is one of the many final assignments that we have to tackle..and since its artwork..its gonna take more time to make sure that the artwork is perfect. Thank God that i managed to last through the day..i even managed to get to my kickboxing class without feeling drowsy or cranky or wanting to fall flat on my face while doing my combinations. :P Wait,maybe i was abit cranky in the morning but i guess after the cold start of the day..i was better during the afternoon..hehe. :P

Photography class today was pretty short cause it was the last class for the semester and from here on,we only have to get all the work done and hand it in if possible before the deadline and we'll be able to get bonus marks for handing in the work early..so i'm kinda hoping to get the extra marks but seeing that i havent even buy the films..so maybe i'm being over-positive about the whole matter..hehe. :P Actually,i should start to be more worried about my assignments cause the semester is gonna end really really soon and i'm still kinda quite cool about the whole thing while some of my course-mates are already feeling quite panicky about it..some of them are so tensed that everybody is kinda like really high-strung..so high-strung that some has already burst out in silly fits of anger towards each other..i guess they dont really mean it..just that cause the work-load is quite heavy and time is so short to actually complete everything..so everybody is just on their toes and kinda stepping on each other with them..hehe. :P But i'm just trying not to be influenced by them cause if i start panicking,i dont think i'll be able to get any work done..and i might even piss alot of people off which i really do not intend to do. :) So 'chill' or 'stay cool' is my motto for now til things cool down and everybody isnt so tensed over the whole matter. :D

Gotta start work on some short essay that i'm suppose to write and hand in tomorrow..its for our group project which was suppose to be due last week but i kinda forgot about it but thankfully Raimy and Aitf remembered about so they were doing it and i tried to help but they were on a roll so i didnt want to add more ideas that might draw the whole concept to a different direction..so i just sat back and decided to help out in other areas..and so here i am..gonna write a brief 2 paragraph about the typeface we have created. :) And i kinda bought food..so i'm gonna go eat now..hehe. ;) So 'bonne nuit, mes amis." "Au revoir."

"Where is there dignity unless there is honesty?"
-Cicero; Roman author, orator, & politician (106 BC - 43 BC)-

This painting here is also from KarangKraf by another artist..not as good as the few that i've posted here before but the water looks quite real even though u might not be able to see it from this photo. Interesting painting. :)

*YAWN* man,i'm really really tired right now..think its cause i've been sleeping so irregular that trying to sleep early isnt really helping anymore..weird..hope i dont fall sick or anything like that. :) Quite proud of myself actually..managed to control my cravings last night and i didnt get tempted to go and get food..so i didnt eat last night and this morning, i wanted to have breakfast but i decided not to so i lasted til like lunch time i think..had something light to eat and drink and lasted til just now when i was at William's mamak again with Jonathan, Evelyn and Dax..had myself some mixed rice which i hope wont give me a stomach-ache..cause i kinda took alot of spicy stuff which were kinda cold already..so erm..hehe..not a very good idea to have cold spicy curry stuffs. :P Anyways, had to eat something else i would really starve if i didnt. ;) Hope this diet plan will work again for me since it worked the last few months when i was on it..

Today was kinda ok..had Malaysian Studies today and we learnt about Malaysia's foreign policy and which are the 5 top foreign policy that Malaysia give priority to and stuffs like that..interesting lar..and also today..Ms. Zakiah was giving points to those that can answer her questions..i did manage to answer some but i guess i wasnt loud enough cause she gave the points to other even though i answered it first..kinda disappointed but then again..i didnt really care after awhile..so i kinda stopped answering because she couldnt hear me..so weird..Yanna, Oja and Putri was sitting in front of me and they all heard me shouting out the answers but Ms. Zakiah didnt even hear me..what a waste of my time and breath..all for nothing even..Some them that heard me saying the answers even took my answers and said it louder before i could repeat myself and she gave them the points..man,was i pissed..but like i said, after awhile..i just didnt bother to answer her anymore..so i just sat there,taking notes and listening to the rest try to answer her questions.

Then there was History of Art during the afternoon..wasnt actually a class but we had our make-up test today..and i dont think i did very well on it..but i think i can still get some marks out of it..cause i managed to answer some..but dont think thats gonna be enough cause the rest did go for the first test a few weeks back and they were more prepare this time round and i'm not..so very big difference..but i'm hoping that i'll at least get half of the answers correct cause if anything less than half,that means i would have failed the test..and thats not good.. :) So now if u asked me about art movements such as Renaissance, Realism, Symbolism, Rococo and all that..i think i can manage some questions but not too many..hehe. :P What a show-off huh...ehehe..only know abit of the stuffs and want to show-off already..sure gonna kena something embarrassing one..hehe. :P

Zaza came to college today to take the History of Art make-up test..she looked so drained and tired..man,i really wish i could do something to make her feel better but i know i cant do much except to just be there and let her know that the gang and i are around to support her through this difficult time..And also because of her condition right now..Ms. Bakia allowed our group to have our presentation which was suppose to be done tomorrow to be postponed to after the final exam..so in a way,its a good thing..at least we have more time to prepare for the presentation but the rest of the people will still have to present their stuffs tomorrow..so i'm thinking tomorrow is gonna be pretty light and easy for me and Putri cause we're only having photography class tomorrow and Comm Studies in the afternoon.

But i still have to work on the Creative/Design Studies integrated project which i'm now the group leader..sigh..i really do not like being in a situation where my head is on the chopping board and the rest of the group is not really helping me out..Got the canvas/banner that we're suppose to do our final artwork on today..so guess by Monday we'll have to start work on it already else we wont be able to finish it on time..and we still have to work on the compilation of all our work and our mind-maps so that we can hand it in together with our final artwork..if we dont have the rational and our sketches and stuffs..then our work is gonna suffer alot of mark deduction...and since i'm the group leader,i'm gonna suffer the most mark deduction because i'm the leader..sigh. And i still have not worked out the research that we're suppose to do for the Life Drawing/History of Art integrated project yet..sigh,already have my group members and this time..i'm definitely not going to be the group leader..but it seems that all the groups are behind schedule for this project..so i guess we're still safe cause we're all on the same boat..haha.. :P

Not forgetting there's a life drawing test this friday..and its gonna be a drawing of a model with full rendering and shadow work..so thats gonna be something for me to think about since i'm not a very good artist yet..so alot of practice i'm gonna do before the test this friday..Sigh,what a day huh..but at least the highlight of the day was during this morning after i picked up Oja from the KJ station..saw this dog running by the side of the road..and u know on the pavements there's usually a silver electricity box..so the dog was running and he turned his/her head and looked at our car..and while he turned his head..he kept running and he ran smack into the electric box..hahaha. :P what a sight. :D the doggie was just kinda shaken i think then he continued running..ahaha..wished i could have recorded the incident..hehe. ;) Guess i better get to bed..its really late and i have to get up early tomorrow cause Li Ann has to get to college for a early 9am sharp class so i have to get her there before 9am..oh well,good training for me so that i dont sleep so much..hehe. :) so "Bonne Nuit,mes amis." "Au revoir."

"If you can solve your problem, then what is the need of worrying? If you cannot solve it, then what is the use of worrying?"
-Shantideva-

Currently Listening To : Hey! (Making A Change) - Juwita Suwito.

This painting here is also done by the same artist that did the turtle painting on the previous post..really really nice work i must admit..wonder when will i be able to meet this artist..during the visit with the gang..the artist wasnt at this stall..so didnt get to talk to the person..what a waste,i would have been able to learn alot from him.. :) So enjoy the painting..so sorry if the picture isnt that clear cause i used my Sony Ericsson K700i camera phone to take the photo.

Man,today was pretty stressful for my group in college today..U could even say that some of my group members nearly wanted to start a fight with the lecturer in the lecturers' room..hehe. :P Really really long story so..the bottom line is that now our design concept is 'Florals within White Spaces' and i'm suppose to come up with the sketches cause somehow i've become the group leader now and my head is on the chopping board and also that the sketch that Ms. Ain like is from me..so the rest of the guys decided that i'll be the one thats gonna come up with the final sketch so..now i'm stuck being the group leader and coming up with the final artwork..Sigh,i really hope i didnt piss any of them off cause the group leader's position is a very very risky one..its either u get extra marks when ur group did good on the final artwork or if the group's final artwork sucks..then the group leader's mark will be deducted more than the rest...so not a risk that i'm willing to take right now..

Anyways,got to college around 9.30am but i went straight to the library cause i wanted to work more on my sketches before showing it to Ms. Ain and also when i got to the library,i met Ryan and he told me that the rest of the gang will be there after lunch so i guess i wont have to rush for anything but when i decided to go up to class around 11am..it seems that Ms. Ain didnt want to take our attendance anymore cause i was really late..sigh,didnt even bother to explain to her cause she didnt even want to hear anything from me..man,she's really starting to piss me off..at least i showed up right..and she wasnt even teaching anymore..she just want to see our work..so whats the big deal?!?! At least we showed up..some of the other people didnt even show up..Thats just like the start of the irritation from her..So irritated by her that i didnt even have the appetite to eat..stayed in class til 2pm then called Jeremy to check see where is he cause i just wanted to see Ms. Ain then leave after she has approved our work..and that was where the arguement i would say with her started. Sigh,what a day.

And also today i heard from Oja that Zaza had a miscarriage..i dont even know how to react to the news cause i've never had a friend that's close to me going through that type of situation..Apparently she was 2 months pregnant but she didnt know about it..and also during this past weeks,assignments were aplenty and she wasnt sleeping enough and eating well so i guess that kinda caused the miscarriage..Sigh,i dont even know how to console her..But to me i think..not to sound mean or anything but i dont think this time is a good time to have another baby cause her first child is only going to be 2 years old soon..and she's planning to go overseas to get her degree..so dont think she can bring her child over with her..so if she did have the other baby..its gonna make it harder for her to study..but i've never been in their shoes and i'm not in their shoes..so i have no right to say anything i guess..so i'll just try to be more accomodating to her until she feels better..but she is a very strong woman..so i guess she'll pull through this soon enough.

Anyways,got back from kickboxing today..didnt really do so good..cause my punching had some problems..now i realise that i've been punching wrong..not straight enough..so have to work on it..and today's workout was..WOW! really fun but very tiring.. :D the combinations were really really fun..i think everybody enjoyed themselves even though the whole workout was pretty tiring..Learnt alot of new stuffs and have to work to improve some of my punches and stuffs too..so a pretty good workout today with Andre. :)

So now i should be working on my sketches and also reading up on my History of Art stuffs cause tomorrow there's gonna be a make-up test for the test we had a few weeks ago..which i didnt go for cause i was in the darkroom trying to finish up my work for the 1st assignment for photography..so now i really have to ace this test else i'll really suffer some important marks for this subject. :) Also,right now i'm really tempted to go out and look for food at UpTown..hehe..i dont know why but i really want to go out and look for malay food again..sigh,this craving of mine for malay food is never gonna end i think..hehe. :D guess i'm a sucker for spicy malay food right now. :) So i'll just have to go offline and start my work and drink more water so that i'll drown my cravings for good food at such hours..hehe. :P Guess i'll be having a heavy breakfast tomorrow morning then. :) So "Au revoir, mes amis."

"Whenever people agree with me I always feel I must be wrong."
-Oscar Wilde; Irish dramatist, novelist, & poet (1854 - 1900)-

This photo was taken when i was at KarangKraft with the gang a couple of weeks ago..this particular artist is really interesting cause he did a piece while scuba diving at some dive area in the East Coast. So there were pictures of him and his friends i guess painting underwater and it seems that he's in the Malaysian Book of Records..pretty amazing stuff i would say but i've never heard of him before..so its kinda weird..hehe. :) But found his paintings really really good..so will try to post more of his work here when possible. :)

Feeling really weird right now..feels like its the start of the downhill part of my emotions for this month. What the &^*%(# is wrong with me? Sigh..think it'll go away soon..just have to let it go and dont do anything stupid during this time thats all. Why the hell do i act like i'm a woman with PMS..crap. Didnt go to college today, thinking that i might be able to go to my orthodontist for the monthly check-up that i missed on the first week of this month and this month is already gonna end..what a lazy person i am. Anyways, tried to call in the morning to arrange for an appointment but nobody picked up the phone so guess they werent open today..so what a waste of time..should have went to college instead..the end of the semester is really close and there's alot of work to be done..and this time round..most of it are group work..so dont think i can use my method of work for this semester unless i want to pissed all my group members off. :) But anyway,should be doing work but i am not..not yet anyway..think i'm beginning to become a night person..only works well during the night. :D

Will give y'all a low-down of what happened this weekend for me. Nothing much except for quite a few disappointments. Guess i got my hopes up too much so the fall was pretty big..Wanted to get online since yesterday but couldnt cause we didnt pay the internet bills for like 3 months so yesterday the line was suspended until like just now..was feeling pretty weird not being able to go online..haha. ;) Guess this means i'm addicted to the internet and blogging. :P better do something about it else it might just get too hard to stop when i dont have enough time to go online and blog..haha. :)

Saturday : Nothing much happened except for church and Christmas practice at night..covered for Eugene on the guitar cause he had stuffs to do..and erm,during practice..Jonathan and i made the change from singing parts to singing the melody already..hehe. :P Cause they recorded one of our sessions during that night and when we heard it..i kinda decided that my part sounded the WORST..so i told Evelyn that i dont think i should sing that part..even though i want to but having heard myself..man,i think i should not sing else i'll really be thrown off the stage..hehe. :P Think i sound better singing the melody even though the song is on a high note..well,to me its kinda high but still manageable. Oh yeah,the highlight for the day was finding out that Jared met with an accident while coming back from Melaka after an excursion to check out the YF Camp site for this year with Jonathan and Lay Yan. Nobody got hurt but the repair for the car's gonna be hefty amount..but the police decided that it wasnt Jared's fault so the claim is gonna be on the other person's insurance..so he wont need to pay a cent for the repair work. All in all a not so happening day for me..but the anticipation for Sunday after church was high cause i was looking forward for the CQB at GlenMarie with Spencer and gang.

Sunday : Slept quite early the night before cause there wasnt much to do..and also didnt feel like doing anything,just wanted to get the day past church and all so that i can get to the CQB in time for at least 3 battles. :) Church was ok..was up with the Children Church helping out..so didnt hear the guest speaker share. Then choir practice was pretty quick..guess cause there wasnt much to practice on..but all in all,everybody did quite well lar..just abit more minor bits to work out.. :) So got to the GlenMarie abandon building around 1.15pm but when we got there the a couple of policemen were there already, guess cause they were interested in finding out why there were cars parked outside an abandon building. So Nelson and i waited outside cause we didnt want to get into trouble with the police while Spencer and gang was inside trying to settle the stuffs with the police..and after waiting for like 20 minutes, we decided to go for lunch cause Nelson thinks we wont be able to have the CQB already cause the police is gonna cause alot of trouble..being in an abandon building and all..so went to SS3 for lunch with James and Christina. Spencer called later to tell me about what happened..nothing much except they had to pay off the police to get off the hook..so now they're gonna look for somewhere new to have their CQBs..so just have to wait for them to find a new place but i guess the night battles at the SS2 playground would be on..since we wont get much trouble from the police since its a public area and all. :) Wonder if they're gonna have anything this week. :D So thats my weekend. :)

Today woke up feeling pretty depressed for dunno what crap reason..sigh,i really feel like i'm acting like a lady..what the &(*^*&^#$ is wrong with me?!!? Anyways,didnt get to go to see my orthodontist today so wasted the day by going to CarreFour to get food and stuffs and sat in front of my mac waiting to get online and watching 'That '70s Show' episodes that i've downloaded recently. Oh yeah,also transfered most of my movie and picture files out of my mac to my external 120GB HDD, had to clear out the big files cause i was running low on my HDD space on my 80GB powerbook G4. :) So now i'm running on like 50GB of space but i think i need to upgrade my RAM to 1024mb..now am running on 512mb of RAM...things are getting kinda slow..so guess i should do something about it soon. :) Gonna go for dinner with LEK and Jared later at Old Town's bak kut teh..they asked me out for some catch-up and dinner..guess i must have done something wrong again..or i didnt do the stuffs which i'm suppose to do..sigh,gonna have to get to Old Town by 8pm...Man,2 private meetings in like a span of 2 or 3 months..cant remember when was the last meeting but it was a counselling session again..sigh,feeling too depressed now to want to talk to anyone..why the heck to i always get this kind of meetings? Feels like its so hard to just be a christian..or maybe its just me..So,we'll find out soon enough. :) Gonna go off now..this post is really really long. Guess nobody's gonna spend their precious time reading it..except for me that is.. :D So "Au revoir, mes amis."

"You don't stop laughing because you grow old. You grow old because you stop laughing."
-Michael Pritchard-

Just got back from Times Square..kinda heavy traffic even though it's the first day of the fasting month..and i thought there's gonna be less cars around cause the malays would be at home having dinner. :D but i was wrong..there's still the rest of the malaysians hanging around, going places and stuff. Went down to Times Square around 7.30pm and got there like 1/2 hour later..so guess its still good. :) Needed to go get some more ammo for my mini AEG...thankfully,the guys at Graffiti Toys still had some ammo packs for sale..but i think there's only 2 packs left cause i took the last 3 packs of 1,800 bbs. :) Cause this Sunday there's gonna be a CQB with Spencer's team at GlenMarie..so gotta get more ammo just in-case i get too trigger-happy..hehe. :P

Today's classes were pretty ok..i can safely say that i'm getting better at my drawings for this semester. :D Didnt get too many comments on my drawing from Mr. Foad..so guess that means i'm getting better. :) Most of body parts are in proportion even though the face isnt exactly like the model but at least i got something right. hehe. :D Finished class kinda early today again..around 12pm but next week we're gonna be ending class at 4pm cause next week, we're gonna have a drawing test..yeah,u heard me..a test for drawing.. :D anyways,it's suppose to evaluate our understanding of everything thats been taught so far..hence the test..i hope i'll do good on the test..dont want to repeat this subject again next semester cause next semester we're gonna be going into the course proper..so more animation and doing stuffs on the computer more. At least with the computer, i'm sure i'll be better at it than all these drawing and stuffs. :)

After lunch,got to Putri's place cause Raimy, Atif and i were waiting for the rest of the guys to finish their class then we can play basketball..the weather was pretty good today..wasnt too hot and it didnt rain..so it was good. Got to play 2 games but after that i was kinda tired already..so i stopped but the rest continued cause by that time..Allen and Adam got to the court..just in time to take my place. :) Left the court around 5pm i think..didnt want to leave CyberJaya too late else it's gonna be a big drag just to leave when everybody else is trying to get home. Plus, the malays are going to get food from their Pasar Ramadhan to break fast..so that means more cars parked at the side of the road. Not a good idea..dont like to get stuck in traffic jams when i'm tired and falling asleep..hehe. :P

Anyways,bought nasi lemak from the SeaPark Maybank mamak..hopefully it got better cause for a while back, their food gotten quite bad for no reason at all..they always do crap like this...their quality variates like some lift going up and down. :P Yeah,i know..jumped off my diet again..cant help it..not feeling so happy right now..and like i said before..its either i go shopping or i eat then i wont feel so down. :) Hopefully,thats gonna help after i eat..and think i'll go eat my nasi lemak with ayam goreng now. Then i still have to start work on my research for my History of Art final assignment. Still have to get like 10 sketches out for the Creative Studies final assignment too..and the sketches are due on Monday..well,actually it should be due on Tuesday cause we only have class with Ms. Ain on Tuesday but guess Jeremy wants to take a look at the sketches first. So gonna take off now. :) Take care, people. "Bonne nuit."

"Artists who seek perfection in everything are those who cannot attain it in anything."
-Eugene Delacroix; French Romantic painter (1798 - 1863)-

Just got back from the AirSoft battle at the SS2 playground. :D still very excited over the whole thing cause we were playing alot this time round even though we only played for 2 hours..Tried out the new laser pointer which i've placed onto the G3A3 but realise that the button should be somewhere else..so just now i've already made the changes and hopefully after 12 hours i'll be able to try it out again. :D We kinda played until we were all out of ammo..haha. :) Nelson also managed to come for the game so i kinda took some ammo from him but he was also running low on it..so by the time 1am came, we were all out of ammo..so we had to end the battle. :) Met a few new guys tonight, one of the new guy is into ninjitsu..so thats pretty interesting cause night battles are about stealth..so it was pretty interesting to see how he would be invisible in the night..haha. :P Tonight also gave me alot of ideas on how to improve my G3A3..kinda have an idea on how i can have more ammo by using bottles as ammo carriers..they do sell the ammo carriers for the G3A3 but they're out of stock and i'll have to wait til like november before i can get to them..so i guess i should just recycle my stuffs and just make one for my own..hehe. :P Gonna go to Times Square tomorrow to get more ammo from Graffitti Toys. RM20 for a pack of 1,800 bbs. Spencer said it's reasonable and if i buy through him..he'll be able to get them for RM18 but thats gonna take too long..so i'm just gonna go tomorrow and get some for myself and also for Nelson. :D And also i'm suppose to come up with a call-sign for myself..cause then it'll be easier when we have battles and stuffs. :) For example, Spencer's call-sign is Neo, and some others which i cant remember now..hehe. :P But u get the idea. :) This Sunday's CQB is gonna be really interesting..talked to Spencer and the guys and they were gracious enough to start the CQB later than when they would usually start it cause Nelson and i mentioned that we would love to come and join but church only ends around 11.30am then gotta go for the Christmas practice and thats gonna last til like 12.45pm..so by the time i get to GlenMarie for the CQB..its gonna be like 1pm or 1.15pm..so maybe we'll still be able to get into for one battle. :D Fingers crossed and all the crap so that we can get there in time for at least 1 game..if not 2 games would be good..hehe. :D But i think i enjoy the jungle battles more cause its harder to gauge where the enemies are coming from and also the battles last longer and we wont use up as much ammo as we do during the night battles..cause during the night battles,there isnt many places to hide or whatever so its all down to who can aim better and who's gun has better range and all that stuff. :) Think i better get to bed..its already like 2am and i need to get up early later. :) Plus,my stomach's starting to make noise and i'm thinking about eating already...haha..so before i fall into temptation,i better get to sleep so that i wont be thinking about food. :D So "Bonne nuit et rêves doux, mes amis." "Curious things, habits. People themselves never knew they had them." -Agatha Christie; English mystery author (1890 - 1976)-

I wonder if anybody has kids like that in the comic strip? Sure must be really exciting times everyday when u bring ur child out..haha. :P I better start praying that i dont have kids like that. ;) Anyways, just got back from kickboxing..pretty proud of myself cause i'm ignoring my urge to have dinner. :D So hopefully,this diet plan will pick up again after like 1 month plus that i've stopped that diet plan. :) But i'm still having urges for good nasi lemak..found some new places that supposedly have good nasi lemak and good sambal. :)

Today was pretty interesting..had photography class with Mr. Lee today and he explained about lighting stuffs..how light will affect ur photo and how to make the lights work for u when u're doing studio work. :) Didnt really understand some of the stuffs but i think when i try it out, i'll be able to work it out. :D Cant wait to get into the studio to get some shots done..but first i guess i should go get the roll of films first..hehe. ;) Zaza already has like 2 rolls of film of slides already. Guess i better start my work else i'll be rushing through my work again like the last assignment.

Finished Mr. Lee's class around 11.30am and Zaza, Putri, Raimy, William and i decided to go to Alamanda to have lunch..cause tomorrow the malays will be starting their fasting month so the girls wanted the last day before the fasting month to be celebrated with good food..haha. :) Yanna didnt show up cause her flu gotten worse..think alot of people are kinda down with flu..i hope i wont get it..too much work to get done to be falling sick. :) Oja also didnt show up today cause she had to attend a funeral service..didnt ask for much details cause i was kinda in a rush to get to college..hehe. :P Got back to college for Ms. Bakia's Comm Studies class kinda late but we kinda got an extention from her to start the class around 2pm. So we were still safe..but we had to get some of the graphs and data printed out so that we can do the presentation.

But most of us werent really prepared for it so most of us failed the presentation cause we didnt do it properly..but Ms. Bakia was really nice about it even though during the start of the lesson, she was pretty pissed at some of us cause we didnt get into class before 2pm even though she gave us an extention and also some of the guys came into class not dressed for the presentation. She said the dress-code was flexible but some of them came in with slippers [flip-flops] and shorts..so she was pretty pissed. So yeah,Ms. Bakia said that today's presentation was a test-run so we have another chance next week to re-do the presentation..guess all of us really lucked out this time..so we should do it better even though it only carries 10 marks of the total marks we're going to get for this semester. Most of us took a long time so we ended class around 5pm cause she spent the last hour explaining to us what we did wrong and what we can do to improve our presentation.

Got back straight and went back out in like 15 minutes cause i needed to get to Sri Hartamas for my 6.45pm kickboxing class..thank goodness i made it even though there was a traffic jam on the Section 16/Eastin Hotel stretch. Met most of the gang from TNT that i've not seen for awhile. Kinda happy that i met them again..missed them alot. :) Anyway,after class i saw a sms from Spencer Neo saying that there's gonna be an AirSoft battle at a playground near my place..so near that i can actually walk to the place..but i think i'll drive..hehe. :P Lazy bum huh. ;) That sms was like a God-sent cause i was gonna email Spencer to ask him about this Sunday's CQB..cause i actually do want to join them for the CQB but i can only do that after 1pm cause after church..we have the Christmas practice with the choir. Trying to see if they are gonna play for like 5 - 6 hours then maybe i might be able to go for like 1 battle or something. :D

Think i have to go already..the battle's gonna start at 10.30pm..trying to get there early to get my stuffs ready..hopefully i'll have enough ammo for tonight..hehe. ;) Maybe i'll buy some ammo from Spencer, cause i think i'll be pretty trigger-happy tonight..hehe. ;) Oh man,cant wait to go..haha..Oh well,so "Au revoir, mes amis." Take care,my brothers. :D

"Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save."
-Will Rogers, New York TImes, Apr. 29, 1930; US humorist & showman (1879 - 1935)-

Today was kinda monotonous. Woke up kinda early,got to the KJ station and picked up Oja and got to college around 9.20am. Malaysian Studies today was kinda ok..wasnt really that interesting but i learnt something new about 13 May 1969. Ended the class around 11am i think and the gang decided to go to the library to work on their Creative/Design Studies integrated project and i worked on the Comm Studies stuffs cause tomorrow we're suppose to have a small presentation on the progress of our work.

Went for lunch around 12pm and went home from there cause there isnt anymore History of Art class. Kinda sad about it though cause i was beginning to like that class alot. Oh well,now just have to work on the History of Art/Life Drawing integrated project. Suppose to be in the same group with Jeremy, Cheng Yee, Ryan and Allen. Gotta get like 10 sketches done by next week for the Creative/Design Studies integrated project to show Ms. Ain. She's been rejecting everybody's work..the worst thing is that she wont tell us why she rejected our work and what can we do to make the work to be better..so we're working like blind mice trying to look for food.

So now i'm here at home,trying to work on the Comm Studies stuffs so that i wont have to sleep late again..not really feeling so good still, guess i havent been drinking enough water and sleeping late all the time. Sigh,this semester better end soon and end well for me..i dont want to see Ms. Ain or Mr. Nik again. Dont think i want to get left behind while the rest of the gang move onto the next semester.

Suppose to be in church right now, praying but i dont think i wanna sleep late again cause i'm up trying to finish up work for tomorrow. Very naughty huh..oh well,cant afford to lose easy marks like this..So guess i better get back to work..But i'm thinking about going out soon to get some food from the Old Town food court. :) Heard there's this malay stall which has nice malay food and in big portions..haha. ;) Look at me..been skipping so many kickboxing classes and eating like there's no tomorrow. Even Yanna said that i'm fatter already..sigh,i feel i'm fatter already too..sigh.cant help it..been feeling kinda down recently and food seems to be the only cure for now.. ;) And also shopping..but that needs too much money..so guess i'll just have to stick to food. :D But at least today i managed to stick my laser pointer onto my G3A3 mini AEG. :) Kinda got some super glue on my finger though but at least i didnt get my fingers stuck together..hehe. :P Looking really nice but i think my handiwork could have been better. Kinda got some extra super glue on the gun but at least it didnt spoil the gun so i'm still safe. :D So take care,people. :) "Au revoir,mes amis."

"I believe that one of life's greatest risks is never daring to risk."
-Oprah Winfrey, O Magazine, September 2003; US actress & television talk show host (1954 - )-

Currently Listening To : Eu Te Devoro - Djavan.

As u can see above,sorry if the picture isnt that clear cause i used my K700 so dont think the quality can be that good unless if i was using the Nokia 7610 then it'll be alot better. :) Really really good welding work done by..not a LUCT student or lecturer but an out-sourced worker but working under the supervision of Nizam, our ambiguous Life Drawing lecturer. I dont mind his/her status cause he/she is a nice lecturer even though he/she is kinda bias towards the guys but then again..i have no problems with that...hehe..except for the girls that is. ;) Really really good work..u really have to be there,looking at it with ur own eyes to appreciate the beauty and hardwork of this art-piece. The whole thing is done through welding, its a big piece of metal and the details are done by welding to cut away the parts which are not needed. Really cool stuff. And this was done for the opening of LUCT's MDTC which we call the Design Plaza where we have been having our meals since 2 months ago. Everybody was there..even those that didnt [read : never] show up for classes since the beginning of semester showed up because LUCT promised a 10% token to those that turn up for the opening ceremony.

But as usual,all of us were screwed over by LUCT again. Why do we always fall for their stupid gimmicks when we already know about it..stupid! Anyways, we were all screwed over by them again cause the 10% token works as if u have like 40% for a particular subject then the 10% is from the 40% that u have..so that means u only get 4%..and that means only 44%. crap, and we were all under the impression that the 10% is 10% meaning if u have 40% and with the 10% equals 50%..but no,we are all screwed by LUCT cause they didnt give us the details. If we all knew how the deal was like this..NOBODY would have shown up for the stupid crap..well,except for those involved with the performances and stuffs..stupid crap!

Yesterday was really nice cause everybody was kinda not in the mood to do anything cause the students cant wait to get their free 10% token which are kind useless right now and the lecturers are busy trying to get everything ready for the opening ceremony so nothing much was done so we had early lunch around 11am. Kinda had to wait around the Design Plaza til like 3pm before we went back to gather for a final briefing from the lecturers..telling us where to stand and stuffs like that.

Was quite tiring just standing there and stuff but it was really fun i guess. :) I was standing like 2 arms length away from Pak Lah when he walked past our class to get to the Hall of Fame for the ceremony and stuffs. He arrived around 4pm and spent some time at the Design Plaza for some presentations and also had a tour of the place. It was really funny too cause all of us were like clapping and shouting and stuff but i think nobody knows why we were doing it..we did it just cause the lecturers asked us to do it..haha. :P When he walked past, i could hear his ask one of the lecturer.."Where are we going?" and "What's happening?"..hehe..guess he's as blur as all of us as to what is actually happening..hehe. :P Kinda exciting though being able to be so close to the Prime Minister cause dont think i'll ever have that kind of chance again..not so soon anyway. :)

Didnt go to college today cause i woke up with a bad headache..sigh,i wonder why..felt so tired too even though i slept quite early yesterday..oh well,didnt have to fetch Oja to college cause she was spending the night over at Putri's so it was kinda ok..Li Ann took care of herself so that was that. Apparently,i wasnt the only one that didnt show up..hehe. ;) Raimy missed the bus, Yanna's down with fever..so guess today isnt such a good day. ;) But i did manage to run some errands today so it was good..wanted to go to my orthodontist but dont think i can just call and go cause he's schedule is really really packed..so guess i'll just have to go next week..unless i'm gonna be packed with work again..Spent the day sleeping alot, hope i'll feel better. :)

Went to Midvalley to get my laser pointer for my mini AEG and hoping to get some accessory for my mini AEG but BranRyan was out of anything for the mini AEGs except for the laser pointer which cost me RM70. Guess i'll just have to wait til November before i can get the accessories from them. :) Really hope i can go for the CQB thats happening this Sunday but i doubt i can make it cause i think Christmas practices will last til like 1pm and i think by that time Spencer and his group would have been done with it.

*YAWN* sigh,need to get back to work else tomorrow i'll have alot to answer for when i meet my group and gang. Think tomorrow's gonna be pretty light cause i only have Malaysian Studies and History of Art. Which reminds me that i need to sign up for the make-up test for the History of Art test which i didnt sit for cause i was busy in the photolab trying to get all my photo prints out for Mr. Lee. Think Thursday is gonna be packed cause there's suppose to be a small presentation for Comm Studies on the progress of our assignment. Sigh,and i still havent figure out how to do the tables and graphs for the first 4 questions of the questionnaire which i'm taking care of..ARGH,how can it be so difficult when all u need to do is just press the button and type..Oh well,guess i better get crackin' else i'll be sleeping late again..which i dont want to do. "Au revoir, mes amis." "Bonne nuit."

"He who is not very strong in memory should not meddle with lying."
-Michel de Montaigne; French essayist (1533 - 1592)-

Man,what a busy busy weekend. :P Stuffs to do, places to go, practices to go for and also the all important first time for a game with Nelson, Azlan and gang in Gombak. ;) Also on Monday, the opening of LUCT's MTDC [Makanlah area], the place where we hang out most of the time cause thats where all the food is. :P So busy and felt so tired after everything that i didnt even have the time to blog..hehe. :D Well,i'll just like give a summary of how my week went. ;) I've tried to own a diary when i was young but it never did catch on with my but now..man,i cant even stop. ;) When i dont blog, i'll be thinking about what i want to put into my next post and how am i going to summarize the stuffs so that it wont be too long to read..haha. :P How ironic! ;)

Saturday : Early morning went for breakfast with Nelson & Yvonne at O&S in Paramount then sent Yvonne to work. Sungai Wang was the next stop cause i got my mini AEG from Sun Comics for RM190 as u can see the photo of the box above. ;) So happy about it. :D After that went to Pertama cause Nelson wanted to get a camouflage mesh from there..at first i wanted to get the camouflage pants too but then i thot maybe its not worth it so didnt get the RM48 camouflage pants. Then was YF and Christmas practice..didnt do so well during the practice tho..totally lost my parts. sigh,what a disaster,hope i do better this week. :) Then after practice went with Nelson to his cousin, Azlan's place in Taman Melawati around 12am to look at his stock of guns and stuffs. Saw some really cool stuffs. ;) 1 : 1 scale guns such as a M4, shotgun, handguns and stuffs. really really nice. :) Bought myself a 1 : 1 scale handgun with a holster for RM160. :) Dont think i can bring it around though else i'll be shot in sight by trigger-happy Malaysian policemen. ;) :P

Sunday : Got back from Azlan's place around 1am,went straight for bed cause needed to wake up early later to get Nelson & Yvonne and their maid for church. Got some nasi lemak for lunch later cause Nelson and i went for jungle combat with Azlan and his gang at Gombak and also Yvonne needed to get lunch for her work-mates. :) So got to church and needed to cover for someone to do the multimedia and also take care of Pastor's sermon for that day. Then left right after Pastor finished his sermon around 11.20am..didnt even stay for the Christmas practice cause needed to get Yvonne to work on time and also the jungle combat was suppose to start at 12pm. So not much time to get from Subang to Gombak with a stop-over at Ampang in 40 minutes. ;)

Managed to get to the place in time for the 1st game.. ;) They also started kinda late around 12.30pm when we got to the place..I knew the place and didnt even realise that actually there are combat stuffs happening at those places. ;) Knew that place cause that was where i had my driving exams. So interesting..after like 5 years of driving and i'm back there at that place again for something else. :) We got to play like 3 games, all of them lasted around 1 hour and we had a 1 hour break for lunch so we ended the thing near 6pm. Didnt even realise that it was so late until someone looked at the clock and said "ok,last game." hehe. :P

The guys there was so equipped and dressed that u would think that it was actually a military exercise or something..hehe. ;) They all carried at least 2 guns on them..some M4s, shotguns, Colt Carbine and a sidearm such as handguns and mini AEGs and stuffs like that. Really really cool and very military combat like. ;) So exciting and fun..hehe..the anticipation of getting shot, finding the enemy and hoping u can at least shoot someone really got my pumped..hehe..cant wait to join them again. :) Apparently, Spencer and his group will be having a CQB at a abandon building in GlenMarie this coming Sunday around 10am..too bad i cant join...would still be in church. :( oh well,at least i had the experience of being in combat in a jungle. ;) I think i was the youngest person there..hehe. :P

Oh well,then after the game..went to get Yvonne from work and sent them back home. I was in a hurry to get back cause i needed to get to Oja's place for dinner around 7.30pm. She invited the gang over for dinner and man,was dinner good! :P Her mom had a restaurant in 1 Utama about 6 years ago i think..the restaurant next to Pizza Hut in the old wing..when Intencity was still around..Yeah,that old..and the food..wow,fantastic! hehe. ;) The sambal belacan..was so good and spicy i took so much that the mom said i was really gila [crazy]..dont think she has met a young chinese boy that can take such spicy stuffs..hehe. ;) Even Zaza was saying that i was crazy..haha. ;) Oh well,when it comes to spicy stuffs..i wont mind..just that later i might get stomachaches thats all..hehe. :P

So thats how the weekend went for me..pretty tight with stuffs..but it was all worth it cause it was F-U-N all the way..hehe. ;) Kinda think it was because i had too much fun that i kinda felt really tired on Monday and was feeling under the weather..hopefully i'll get better soon,dont want to stay feeling slightly sick or something like that for too long..Its either i get sick or not sick..i dont like being in the middle.. :D

"Everybody gets so much information all day long that they lose their common sense."
-Gertrude Stein; US author in France (1874 - 1946)-

*YAWN* Dont know why but i'm feeling really sleepy since i finished class today. And Life Drawing today wasnt that hard either..just learned how to draw muscles today and only had to do 1 outline drawing of a model onto a catridge paper and we were done..didnt take that long too cause i did a sideview drawing of the model which only required me to draw 1 arm so it was easier..hehe. :P But i guess i'm getting better at it cause Mr. Foad didnt comment too much on my drawing..not like last time when i first started off..he would ever so often walk over to see my progress and he would comment on my work and take my pencil to draw and show me what i was doing wrong..Today,he only did it like twice..so it was good progress i guess. ;) Good for me..hehe. :P

Actually today i was kinda hoping that there wont be class cause i heard from Oja that there's gonna be another rehearsal for the opening ceremony thats gonna happen on Monday but guess i didnt mind having the class today since i did so well..better than last time that is.. ;) Anyways,after class kinda spent some time at the photolab again..dunno why but guess i've been spending so much time there for the past week that its just like instinct that when i have nothing to do, i'll just go down to the place to look at the rest doing and rushing their work.. :P Kinda helped Preach and some others for awhile when i was but then went up to the Design Plaza later with Raimy to meet William and Raymond for lunch.

After lunch, i got tempted into following the guys to CyberRia for a game of basketball which i wasnt so good and the guys were really really good..felt so bad when we had a 3 on 3 game and i was kinda bringing down my group. :P But at least i made the first shot so guess i made my mark..hehe..but when we started on the 2nd game..it started to drizzle then later in the middle of the game, it started to rain heavier..so i took my stuffs and ran for it to my car..only made it half-way and had to stop near the shops and had to wait there for like 10 minutes before i decided to make a run for it..kinda got drenched but made it to my car. :) So was sitting in an air-conditioned car, driving back to LUCT to pick up Li Ann and drove all the way home..Better not get sick yet cause on Sunday, i'm gonna be playing with Nelson's cousin and gang at Batu Caves with my soon-to-be-mine mini AEG. ;) Cant wait for tomorrow when i'll be going to Sungai Wang with Nelson to get my mini AEG and then going to Pertama to get the camouflage pants. ;)

The rest of the guys though i heard ran to Putri's condo and was going to wait there til the rain stops and maybe they'll play again but i doubt it since the court will be quite wet after the heavy rain..Its good too actually that it rained cause it has been pretty dry and hot for the past few days. :) So a rainy day does make the day less hot. :) Think i should just went with the guys to Putri's place and waited there til the rain stopped then i wouldnt have gotten myself drenched. :P But was glad that i got home sooner cause i kinda fell asleep after i got back and i just woke up..hehe. ;) Thought about going back to sleep again soon..else i'll start getting hungry and i'm gonna go look for food..hehe. :P Not a good idea! ;) Really need to go for more of my kickboxing classes and maybe i'll join the guys for basketball since they'll be playing every friday at the CyberRia Apartment's basketball court. Just have to make sure that i play during the time when Li Ann is at Christian Fellowship [CF]. ;) Yeah,yeah..very naughty lar..dont want to for CF but want to go for basketball..haha. :P

Today was interesting too cause Mr. Foad gave some information on whats gonna happen on Monday if we stay for the opening ceremony thats gonna involve Pak Lah. Each of the students that stay for the entire ceremony will be given a token, 10% for any subject of your choosing, all you have to do is to stay til the end of the ceremony and the attendance will be taken and the lecturer will give the student a small form to fill in and the student can later use it on any subject that he/she is taking and the lecturer will give the student 10% extra. Isnt it so interesting as in how LUCT tries to get all their students to stay and make it look like the college is really great and all that load of crap?!?! I mean,giving away free marks as an incentive to get us students to stay..what a big load of bribery! :P What kind of example is LUCT setting for their students anyway? Well,i wont mind cause i think i'll need it badly..hehe..for some of the subjects anyway. :) And the worst thing is that on Monday, we are all not allowed to park in the college compound for dunno what crap reason but we're suppose to park outside so i'm guessing there's gonna be a big traffic jam on Monday. Sigh,what a way to start off the week huh.. ;)

Anyways,i'm feeling sleepy again..guess i'll just get back to my lovely bed and see how long i can sleep this time. ;) I just hope i wont wake up like 3am or 4am then i'll really be in trouble cause i wont be able to go out for food and i'll be stuck with nothing to do til like 8am when i go look for Nelson and Yvonne for breakfast.. :D Wonder what i'll be having for breakfast..haha. ;) Cant wait til i get my hands on my own mini AEG..hehe. :P But dont think i'll be able to get the Steyr AUG or the MP5 or the G3A3 cause all of those models are not in stock..and i think my only options are the M-16 or the XM177E2 or the last straw is the SG550. Guess thats how its gonna go down since i dont want to wait til like November or December to get my mini AEG.. ;)

"The path to our destination is not always a straight one. We go down the wrong road, we get lost, we turn back. Maybe it doesn't matter which road we embark on. Maybe what matters is that we embark."
-Barbara Hall, Northern Exposure, Rosebud, 1993-

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Yes,it has already been 2 months since i started this blog..and still going pretty strong. ;) Wonder if i'll still be blogging 6 months later? :) Anyways,today has been pretty ok..nothing much happened except a big sense of relief after handing in my 1st photography assignment to Mr. Lee this morning. :D But when i handed it to him..he immediately handed me the brief for the next assignment. What a way to congratulate me on successfully completing my 1st assignment. I've gotta say though that i was wrong when i said that i have pretty good composed photos cause now that i've seen the rest of the gang and the rest of the class' work..man,i think my photos are pretty crappy..but all in all i guess i did good since everytime i try to print a photo..i'll get my test-strip done then i'll go look for Mr. Lee to give his comment on it and what i can do to make the photo better. I think i went to him too many times cause i think he was pretty fed-up of me going to look for him each time and disturbing him..haha. ;) i think he can remember my face already just that my name..maybe not..hehe. ;) But now,i got the hang of things already so can say pretty good at it already also lar..haha. ;) Super ego,right? :P

Well,anyway..its gonna easier this time round in a sense that we wont have to buy anymore chemicals nor photo papers cause we'll be sending it to the guys at the photolab to develop them for us..which is gonna cost us again. Gotta have to get some Ektachrome films from Fuji or Kodak cause for the 1st part of the assignment we're suppose to shoot around 2 rolls of film so that we'll have enough for 20 slides. Yes,part 1 of the 2nd assignment we're suppose to make the films into slides. :) And the best part is that we're gonna be using ISO100 films which is suppose to be less sensitive to light so we'll need to plan our shoots and also if we do screw it up while taking the photo..there is no way of rescuing the film cause when we make a mistake while taking the shot then the film will be screwed.

So it is gonna a pretty exciting ride for this assignment. :D And we'll be learning on how to use the studio to make our shoots to be much better..so thats gonna fun since i might have to go look for models to pose for me so that i can take some shots. :D Any of u pretty girls out there interested? ;) :P Oh well,we have until the end of the semester to hand in this final project which i hope i wont screw up. :) The 2nd part of the project requires us to use CN [Color Negative] films but not ISO100 so thats better. :) so have to go look for some ISO400 CN films either from Fuji or Kodak. Gonna have to print them onto 11 x 14s which is gonna be pretty huge but then again we wont need to go into the darkroom to develop them ourselves..so good for us..haha. ;) Bear in mind that the 2nd assignment will all have to be in color..so there's gonna be even more options and stuffs to play around with. :) Cant wait to get started on it but first i'll have to go search for a place thats selling the films for a cheaper price than what i can find at the photolab in college..

And also the happy bit for today was there wasnt ERS but we had to go see her for some instructions on how we should go about from where we are now..Thankfully Zaza, Putri and i were the 1st group to go in and we took like 1/2 hour in there with Ms. Bakia..talked quite abit about what we should have done by today and also what we need to have by next week for the presentation..which isnt gonna be a formal thing so its good. :) Hence tonight i'll be sleeping late again cause i'll have to get some work done for the ERS so that i can hand them over to Zaza tomorrow..

Been so busy the past week cause of trying to get all the photos out before the deadline which was today..so busy that i totally forgot about my orthodontist appointment i had with Dr. Subra yesterday at 9.45am..haha. ;) Only realised that i had an appointment with him when i switched on my PDA today to play games..hehe. ;) :P Guess i'll just have to reschedule my appointment with him for next week..and i better do it soon else i'll forget about the whole thing again..hehe. :P Man,this braces thing is taking too long..i've been wearing it for like 19 or 20 months already..i really hope i can get it off soon so that i can start taking sparring classes in TNT. ;)

Went for my kickboxing class today..met more of the regulars there today so was quite happy that i've met them again. :) Miss them alot since my 1 month of absence from TNT. :P Apparently, Shan is leaving KPMG and going over to PriceWaterHouse in november..good for her. :) Oh yeah, Karen and Andre asked if they could use my gloves as a sample product to be sent to Australia..It seems that i'm one of the closer ones that is holding a really good pair of AAA boxing gloves, a brand which Karen and Andre started on their own. :) So i think they managed to get someone from Australia to market their stuffs there so they needed a sample quickly and so they made me an offer that if i would give them my flames graphic gloves to them as a sample product, they would provide me with another pair of new 12oz gloves and i can choose what type of graphics i want.. :D pretty good deal to me but i was kinda shy to accept the new gloves cause i mean i dont mind getting back the same one but Karen said that the fella might be showing it to alot of people and the people might want to try them on..so its kinda disgusting and dirty and not nice to give me back the gloves..

So i gave them my gloves today after my class and i told them i kinda have grown fond of the flames so i might be getting back the same graphics but i'm kinda re-thinking my answer cause there is also a spider graphics gloves which is kinda cool looking too..so maybe i'll change over to that one..hehe. :P Anyways,today's class wasnt that bad but i still wasnt up to form yet..guess 1 month of not exercising does take alot out of u...hehe. :P But all in all, being in the senior class was quite interesting cause before i went on my 1 month break i was quite good but now when i'm back..man,the rest has progressed alot.. :P Feeling kinda pressured to perform better..guess that'll take me another month just to get back in shape..haha. ;)

Kinda need to do more work now cause i'm kinda craving for food right now..and i'm thinking about going to Old Town to look for some malay food..hehe. ;) or maybe i can still get to the Chau Yang pasar malam to look for food.. ;) :P Man,what a glutton..and also wasting my money on kickboxing classes.. :D Oh well,a man has gotta eat when he's gotta eat,right? ;) Guess i should get started on my work else i'll be sleeping late again..sigh..i'm starting to look more and more like a panda with my panda eyes..haha. ;)

"Success is counted sweetest by those who ne'er succeed."
-Emily Dickinson; US poet (1830 - 1886)-

Finally today i managed to finish all my prints. :D So happy..haha..Managed to get to college around 8.40am today..cause i had my mobile phone as my alarm and also i asked Oja to give me a wake up call just in-case i couldnt be awaken by my mobile phone. hehe. :) So got to go college pretty early and managed to put my name down to book for the usage of the print station in the darkroom. The hightlight of the morning though was the sight of a backhoe on the highway, trying to reverse back cause he missed the turn-off to PutraJaya. His friend was on another backhoe waiting by the roadside just before the turn-off. I mean,where do they even find drivers like these? Did the government just give them their licence without actually giving them a practical exam? Or did they just get those ex-mini bus drivers..haha. :P There were cars zooming past the backhoe but the driver was oblivious to the traffic and he kept reversing..the government should start monitering crazy drivers such as these so that there wont be so many accidents involving big trunks or machines like those on the road thats taking away innocent lifes.

Anyways,spent like the whole morning and half the afternoon in the darkroom again trying to get about 2 black & white prints out and my photogram [non-negative] and also my contact prints out which i must say i was very successful with on my photogram i think. ;) Came out pretty well on the first try but the composition wasnt so good so i tried another one. :) The 2 black & white prints i had for the day was pretty good too..didnt have to use too many slices of test strips this time round..guess i've done it so many times and made so many mistakes that now i've gotten pretty good at it.. ;) But i think we still did it wrong cause by right we were suppose to keep the prints in the developer section for a solid 3 minute instead of just taking it out when we see the photo appearing on the photo paper.

Oh well,i guess the next time we ever do this..we'll be able to get it right. :) Cause if we had kept it in the developer section for the entire duration of 3 minutes..the black would come out as black and not a dark shade of grey which it seems one of the lecturer will NOT accept but for Mr. Lee..he said he was ok with it..so i guess we're lucky to have him as our lecturer..hehe. :D Well,suppose to have gone for my History of Art test but i skipped it cause by 1pm i only had my 2 black & white prints so i needed the time to do my contact prints and also my photogram. Cause today the photolab had to close early around 3pm...all because of the stupid rehearsal for this coming Monday when our beloved Prime Minister Pak Lah is coming to LUCT to officiate the opening of MDTC and also of LUCT's new campus in CyberJaya. So in-order to make sure that everything is running well during the real thing..the people at LUCT is having their rehearsal which lasted til like 6pm. Well,i dont have much to complain about cause at least i got to see the choir perform..haha. ;) And also the bunch of international students lining up at the main entrance of the MTDC [Design Plaza] to welcome Pak Lah. :)

Oh well,so thats whats gonna be down on Monday in LUCT..so if u people are too free and have nothing better to do..come by to LUCT's new campus and see for urself..how black the building can be..haha. ;) Pretty happy about it too cause there wont be any classes on Monday and that means we wont have to see Mr. Nik! :D YAY! Dont have to see the big-mouth, loud talker, degrader dumb@$$ that doesnt know how to teach even though he knows his stuff. So all in all,today was pretty good..managed to finish my work and even help some other people with their work. :P Met this girl, Jessica through Siti another girl which was in my class last semester but was transferred to another class because of her majoring subject. :) Saw me helping Siti develop her roll of film on Wednesday and thought that i was good at what i do so she asked me to help her with her printing stuffs but on Wednesday i still had alot of work to do so i didnt really help her do much plus i didnt have my own station to use..so couldnt really help her even if i wanted to.. :P

See, act smart in front of people and suddenly everybody that saw how smart u are will come over to ask u for help..So the lesson to learn here is that when u are not done with ur work, dont ever try to act smart in front of other people. They'll see that u're smart and want u to help. ;) So if u dont want to help yet then just act dumb and everything will be fine..hehe. ;) So i've used double-sided tape to tape down all the prints that i want to hand in tomorrow on a 10 x 12 mounting board. But kinda screwed one of the good prints up cause i didnt paste it on the mounting board correctly..cant really see the difference but kinda spoilt it so might not be using that. ;) What a waste.. :P Anyways,pretty happy now that i've finished with all the printing and stuffs. :) No more going to the darkroom and smelling all the chemicals. :D

Guess i'll be off now..cause i still need to try to complete some other work and try to get some shut-eye..been really really tired the whole day..guess i'm not used to waking up so early..haha. ;) I hope tomorrow there wont be any Communication Studies class so that i can get home to sleep then go for my kickboxing class at 6.45pm..hehe. ;) Cant wait to go and release some stress on the punching bag and the kickbag..hehe. :P *YAWN* "Bonne nuit, mes amis." "Au revoir."

"Be entirely tolerant or not at all; follow the good path or the evil one. To stand at the crossroads requires more strength than you possess."
-Heinrich Heine; German critic & poet (1797 - 1856)-

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Got home like an hour ago. Spent the whole day in the photolab trying to get my prints out but today woke up really late even though i wanted to wake up early..couldnt even hear my alarm go off..or maybe i did but i turn it off..its so weird these few days..i cant even remember switching off my alarm or hearing it go off even..whats happening to me?!?! :P Well,today got up around 8am cause of Oja calling my mobile phone and tried to get to college ASAP but got there around 9.30am and all the station were booked. So had to do what we did yesterday and that was to sit there in the photolab and wait for someone to leave then take their station.

But today,some of the dumb@$$ signed out the lens set and the stuffs from the photolab but took it to class cause they had some test or whatever sh*t and i noticed that there were some stations in the darkroom which wasnt occupied but the lens set and stuffs were checked out..so i went to inform the guy at the photolab about it and he wrote down the dum@$$' names and when they got back..he could only give them a warning about it..&%*(&(#*&$(@*#&(*@ bloody hell.. Oja and i and also a few other people were waiting there for the whole morning and we couldnt use any of the free stations because of some sh*thead booking the lens set that way. They werent even allowed to take the lens set out of the photolab but they just hid it in their bag and they went out..bloody hell,so damn pissed!

When i found out which were the fellas,i just said out loud how big a sh*thead they were for doing such things and they didnt even want to look at me..bloody sh*theads..really hope all their works will NOT come out good for doing such sh*thead stuffs,dumb@$$! Anyway,still manage to get 1 print out for today cause i shared a station with Yanna..she only had to do a few contact prints and she's done..Even Raimy manage to get quite alot done but tomorrow he'll have to get his contact print and non-negative print out.

Suppose to be having a History of Art test in the afternoon tomorrow but i think i'll be skipping it cause i still have alot of prints to do..and also i still havent come up with the contact print and the non-negative print. Sigh, Gonna have to skip my Malaysian Studies and History of Art class tomorrow just like how i skipped my Creative Studies class today..Well,not only me..a bunch of us decided not go to for the class cause there wasnt much to do anyway..just have to look for Ms. Ain to get her approval on some stuffs..which she never gave any help to us at all even though we had all the ideas..just that we wanted to know if it was to her expectations or not..but she didnt want to say anything..so we decided to just go ahead with things..

Whats wrong with the lecturers this semester? They kept telling us that just do it, just do it but when we come back the the drafts or whatever..they'll say its wrong and ask us to do again but never tell us what was wrong or how can we improve the idea..i mean..who the hell do u think we are? Psychics? We can read ur mind? We arent even asking u to help us to come up with ideas..we already have the ideas..we just want to know if its according to what u want us to do..crap! Where do they even get these lecturers from? We'll just do whatever we think is right and when we hand it in and they ask us why we did it this way..we'll just say 'We think its correct!' or if they say its wrong then we'll just say 'Its correct to us!'

Hopefully tomorrow i'll be able to wake up early and get to college early so that i can at least get a station early to do my prints..else i'll have to wait for Raimy's station when he goes up for the History of Art test around 1pm..cause i know he'll sure to be able to get a station since his bus will get him to college around 8.30am. :) But i really hope i dont have to do that cause i dont want to risk not having to get enough prints out by tomorrow cause my deadline is on Thursday but i hope to get it all in to Mr. Lee by tomorrow cause we might be able to get some bonus points for handing in our assignments before the deadline.

Anyways,gotta get offline now to get some more of my Communication Studies work done and also do some drafts for my Creative Studies since i didnt get into class today..so better have something to show to her and let her reject it like she always does to our work..Still thinking about whether i should go to Damansara Uptown to get some Nasi Goreng Paprik for dinner..hehe. :P Been having cravings for malay food for the past few days..i wonder why.. ;) :P Trying to look for some really good places that has good nasi lemak and stuffs.. ;) Any suggestions,people? :D

"That's the secret to life... replace one worry with another...."
-Charles M. Schulz, Charlie Brown; US cartoonist (1922 - 2000)-